I have worked with expecting moms and newborn babies for over 8 years now, and although I always wanted to experience the joy of carrying a child of my own, I came to terms it was not in the cards for me. The dream of becoming a mother in the “traditional” sense had long but disappeared after my divorce 5 years ago. I never conceived in that marriage, even after trying for years, and was convinced that I was infertile.
I did not let the dream of motherhood disappear entirely. I took on the joy and challenge of parenthood through being a foster parent in 2011. The ups and downs can be heartbreaking as parenting children with difficult pasts challenge even the most resilient of parents. My daughter Marissa came into my life through foster care, and at 15 years old, one can imagine that the challenges and bounties have not stopped. But the story gets so much sweeter, because now I have a new partner in life to help me through this rocky road.
Last year I married the most precious man I’ve ever met. His spirit shines for me each day, he is so gentle, loving and compassionate to each member in our household. He accepts Marissa with all his heart and parents her like the father I wish I had. I cannot thank God enough for the bounty of having him in my life. But, the blessings do not stop with him, for after our recent marriage in September, it did not take long before we found out the news that we were expecting a child!
I could not believe it at first. Even when two tests confirmed the pregnancy, I had a hard time accepting that I could carry a child. Yet, I have gladly been proven wrong. Now six months later, I am carrying a healthy miracle baby boy. He is active and makes his presence known every day through my growing figure as well as his stronger and stronger kicks. I never thought I would be given the opportunity to carry a precious soul inside my body, and as difficult as some days are, I know I am blessed with such a beautiful gift each and every day. As our little boy gets bigger, my emotions grow and the reality of a new soul becoming part of our life becomes more and more real. Time has passed so quickly, and I know a new beginning is closer than I realize.
My dreams of becoming a birth mother are now a growing reality. We are expecting our little miracle in July, and with his birthdate approaching in the next few months, it means that I will be taking some necessary time off from my business. And I’m going to shop for a diaper bag that suits me. I anticipate May being the last month I can take clients until the end of summer. If things go well, and I can still bend and work with my littlest clients, I will try to extend my photography time. But I anticipate a return in the fall, and of course many pictures of our little guy in the meantime.