Buttons and bubbles and toes, oh my! One month has passed since Justice was born. It has been quite the initiation into motherhood I must say.  I took the opportunity to photograph his sweet little details at this stage before he gets much bigger, as I did not want to miss out on his smallness since everyone is telling me how much I should cherish this fleeting time in his life. I really do love every little part of him.  At 4 weeks he is smiling up a storm when he is not crying from tummy troubles. He is also starting to sound his first coos, which melts my heart each time he makes the effort to “talk” to us.

  • August 18, 2015 - 2:34 am

    Marcy Pusey - I love him! I LOVE the pic of his belly button and button. SO CUTE!!! He’s gorgeous. I can’t wait to meet him!! (January!!)

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I quickly found out how difficult being a new mother is.  I am so impressed that my clients, just a days after having their baby, come to me to photograph their precious newborns when they are still recovering from delivery and figuring out their new sleepless reality.  I thought I would be able to get pictures of my little guy each day as a newborn.  My enthusiasm was quickly quenched by the demands of motherhood.  The pain of recovering after a traumatic emergency cesarean, along with trying to figure out breastfeeding and getting to know baby, it can be overwhelming when one has no sleep

While I was unable to do anything daily, I certainly kept my goal of creating a photograph of Justice at least once a week.  I would like to continue creating images of my little guy each week as he grows throughout his first year. I realize some weeks this may be easier said than done, but I am up for the challenge!

So inspired by my neighbor and talented ceramic artist Laura Fraedrich, who created an original work of art each week for 52 weeks, I will be doing the same. I hope to keep up with posting images on this blog from each week as my son grows. The weeks will correspond to how old he is when the photos were taken (although I may be a few days behind on actually getting them online). I imagine I will have more than one image to share as I am a mom and oftentimes cannot choose just one.  Here is Justice in his 3rd week of life while contemplating it’s meaning.

  • August 13, 2015 - 6:39 pm

    Lisa - Oh my, these are adorable !!!

  • August 13, 2015 - 8:55 pm

    Erin Davis - Love him Jamie!!

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Baby Justice received a special gift from his grandparents in Japan.  A handmade blanket, originally gifted to Daddy when he was an infant, has now been passed down to our son.  I love that it not only has been around for 41 years, but that there is a photo of it in use when Daddy was just 4 months old (below).

At 10 days old, and on Daddy’s 41st birthday, I got him a awesome flash light and we photographed baby Justice with his special blanket.  I even turned the camera over to Daddy who captured a few photos of me holding our little guy. I think they are some of Dad’s favorite photos thus far!  Take a look at his beautiful blue eyes, do you think he is going to keep them?

Sources-
dadstoolshack.com

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When I was pregnant with baby Justice the song “Beautiful Boy” by John Lennon played repeatedly in my head for weeks. Sometimes I would get present to the fact I was about to have a baby in the near future and the song would prompt tears. When I was finally able to hold him, the first thing I noticed were his lips. I love those squishy lips of his!  Then I realized what a amazingly beautiful baby he is.  Granted, I may be looking at him through partial eyes because he is my own, but I have also seen many many babies. Frankly, I was surprised on how beautiful he is, and each and every day, though the exhaustion, fussing, and difficulties of parenting a new baby, I am in just pure adoration of him. I kiss him all over, and tell dad how amazing it is that we created this special little being.

  • July 31, 2015 - 1:29 pm

    Marcy Pusey - Oh, you guys, he’s AMAZING! Love that little man-baby :D

  • August 2, 2015 - 7:42 am

    Lisa El Alami - Beautiful as always, special because he’s yours! Love his preciousness. Can’t wait to visit.

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A strong desire for motherhood first overcame me when I was 25.  Over time after struggling to conceive for many years with my previous marriage I came to the conclusion that I would not be given the gift of bearing a child of my own.  I eventually decided that I can embrace motherhood as a foster/adoptive parent, and fulfilled that desire in 2013 with my teenage daughter Marissa.   Only a few months later I met a wonderful man I now have the honor to call my husband.  I was in conversations with him right before getting married about expanding our family. I was certain of being infertile and told him that it would be the “Will of God” if I were to get pregnant. Well, as God would have it, I did indeed conceive within two weeks of our marriage. It was a true miracle in my eyes and a huge confirmation for our marriage.

Once we found out we were expecting a boy we called him “Will” and knew we would somehow include it in his given name.  After much discussion we came up with a name that resonated with both of us but kept it a secret from everyone else.  We wanted to meet our son before deciding his name.  But the moment father and son first met he knew the name we had chosen so many months ago would fit. Meet our miracle baby, Justice William Reign Higgins.  He was exactly one week old when we took these first photos. These are all in daddy’s loving hands. His personality is beginning to show through already.

  • July 30, 2015 - 4:40 pm

    Lisa El Alami - Such sweet photos of your precious boy! I see wisdom in those beautiful eyes.

  • July 30, 2015 - 9:59 pm

    Helen - He is so so adorable Jamie. :) Love the pic where Bryn is holding him in his hands. x

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Journeys can have unexpected twists and turns.  My path into motherhood had plenty of those and was one of patience, endurance, and finally relinquishing.  We did follow doctor’s orders and finally came in to be induced after 3 weeks of delay.  We were trying to allow my body to go into labor on its own, to have the natural birth we spent so long preparing for.  But as we found, forcing a flower to bloom does not work if it is not ready, and so this was the case with my body. The doctors gave us two days of a more gentle induction to get things going, and it started, although very slowly… That is where the patience came in.

The beginning of the third day proved to be a turning point. The pressure was on by the ‘authorities’ of labor and delivery to break my water artificially.  We felt uneasy about it as the baby was still pretty high up, but finally allowed this to happen for a few various reasons.  I was allowed to labor out of bed, moving around and finding my rhythm. When the pain started to become unbearable, as contractions came on stronger and more frequent, my husband and mother were there to help me through the pain. Yet, my body was still resisting opening, I was hardly budging. I only progressed to 5cm after more than 48 hours of labor, it was so discouraging. I wanted to do this on my own, but induced contractions can be quite intense, this was my endurance phase. I was doing pretty good dealing with the waves of pain, but after so many hours, it was clear I needed help, and a bit of rest.

Seven or so hours after rupturing my water, pain relief had arrived. The exhaustion set in and I was ready to rest for a bit. But little did I know only a couple of hours of rest was on the agenda for me.  Baby’s heart rate dropped twice while I was sleeping. I was moved to correct it.  Although, just a matter of minutes after that move, it dropped again and would not came back up. I was woken up by my favorite nurse telling me, “we’re taking the baby.”  I was so disoriented and confused. She clarified, “You are going in for an emergency c-section now.” I got one last glimpse of my worried husband before being swiftly taken away into the operating room.  Within minutes baby was out and crying. My beloved husband was not allowed to be in the room at the moment of our sons birth. I felt so alone, confused, violated, and heartbroken. Baby was not even shown to me. He was moved to the corner of the room and all I could hear was his screams.

After the surgery my husband was allowed in and able to see our precious son.  The drugs coursing through my blood kept me disoriented and unable to move much.  There was no way I could hold our baby safely.  That first golden hour after birth to bond skin to skin with my boy would be missed, like so many other things for my son and I that evening. The birth I had worked so hard towards was taken away from us without consent. The last step of relinquishing to the birth I received is still an inner struggle…  It’s not an easy journey, yet I know so many other women share my experience. One of disappointment mixed with the love we have for our newly born child.  Questions are still fresh in my mind, ‘what if’ we did this or avoided that… I feel the choices we made at the moment were right for us under the circumstances. Some things I just have to admit are out of our control.

Our son had arrived in the late hours of July 15th, 2015. He was a healthy 7 lbs 3 oz and 20.5 inches long. He was perfect in every way. No indication as to why the heart rate drops. He surprised the whole operating team with his instant cries on arrival. He was so alert, curious and had wisdom in his eyes according to his father. My husband looked at the boy we called “Will” for the first time and realized that the name we had chosen for him months before, and had kept a secret, was indeed the right one for him.  Justice William Reign.

  • July 30, 2015 - 1:13 am

    Namuli - I am so proud of you for the endurance and pain in anyway, God saw you through and finally little flower is blossoming causing such much joy to you both and friends around him.
    Bless you sweets.
    Namuli your pilgrim sister.

  • July 30, 2015 - 11:16 pm

    Lacy Plummer - Congratulations!!! So happy for you Jamie. I have been thinking about you and checking your blog and then all of a sudden, little Justice Will had arrived. Thank you for sharing the beautiful photos with us. What a beautiful gift from God.

  • July 31, 2015 - 7:28 am

    Florence Achuo - I had a similar experience with Anne, the excited of having a first child was wearing out for me as my hours of labor increased, my contractions and pain became unbearable. One member of my support team realized that her heart beat was shallower so they had to rush me to the ER where God did a miracle for me Again. I felt like crying when I started looking at your pictures, but as I scrolled down, I started smiling again and praising God Almighty as I looked at Justices face. What a blessing.. The gift of life. Your mom, your husband, family, friends, thank you all for those endless prayers. It is my prayer that you enjoy every bit of this journey of motherhood.. Love you All..

  • August 6, 2015 - 1:19 pm

    Bryn Mulligan - Quite a journey, that birth. Remember that as unpredictable as it was, in the end your baby and you were safe and alive and well. Life is full of surprises, very shocking ones, that wake you up to realize none of us were ever promised anything to be the way we thought it might be. And yet in the end you will find you are so cherished and celebrated up Above, that this way was the best way. We don’t have all our vision yet, we will later. You’ll never know what you and baby were protected from, but rest with assurance God always does what’s best for you, his precious dear. More life is yet to come, and your journey in the delivery room might prepare you for something needed yet to come. Or someone. The three of you survived the tempest in your little boat, intact, ready to sail back to the rest of the family, all together away into a beautiful sea of learning and love. Maybe you lost a sail but you are still headed in the right direction. Love to all!

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As month 9 drew to a close, anticipating the birth of my first born is way more filled with nerves and difficult than I ever expected.   Mind constantly thinking about questions and worrying about baby, body with limited movement and increased discomfort, and pressure from doctors as a series of diagnosis were thrust upon me, limiting my natural birth options.  I was first asked to induce at 37 weeks along. Ultimately baby and I were doing well as proven by tests done bi-weekly on us, these allowed us to delay an induction for another 3 weeks, and I was even able to get rid of one of my diagnosis to my surprise!?  This was certainly an emotional time filled with difficult decisions. I am happy we delayed for so long and grateful for the extra time baby was able to develop while in the protection of my womb.

I was also fortunate enough to have a kind neighbor allow me to swim in her pool a few times towards the end, what a relief the water was.  One evening my husband and I played around with his little point and shoot underwater camera and he captured these magical images of me swimming. I think I have a budding photographer on my hands!

 

 

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These two brothers were a delight to capture and I was so happy to be able to get so many images of the two of them together!

  • June 8, 2015 - 10:39 pm

    Lacy P. - I love the photos Jamie! You are truly gifted and your business name serves you well. I know that we will enjoy looking at these photographs for years to come. Thank you for capturing our little boys in such beautiful photos.

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Meet 7 day old James way more before that time we was looking for baby registry ideas. This handsome little guy was such a joy for me to photograph and makes me look forward to my little one who should be here in the next month!  I just hope mine will be as cooperative.  Congratulations mom and dad, he is a real treasure!

  • June 2, 2015 - 6:11 pm

    Kelly - WE LOVE THESE PHOTOS! Amazing work Jamie :) it was such a fun afternoon with you! Thanks for capturing our little James!

  • June 2, 2015 - 6:21 pm

    Bill Flynn & Donna Munt ( Proud Grand Parents) - Precious Baby and really great photos.

  • June 2, 2015 - 6:23 pm

    John - Jamie was awesome during our session. Her pictures speak to her talent but seeing her work with James was absolutely incredible. I’m still not sure how she would get him to calm down and pose for such great pictures. I highly recommend her. -John

  • June 2, 2015 - 6:38 pm

    Rebecca Kramb - Love the pictures and the little guy!!

  • June 3, 2015 - 12:52 am

    Meghan - I’M IN LOVE.

    Is that an actual smile in that first picture?!
    He’s clearly a natural. His professionalism jumps off the page.

    Also, the yawning one killed me.

    These are great pictures!!

  • June 3, 2015 - 9:09 am

    Rachael - Wow! Such great photography and such a cute baby!! He looks like a natural for the camera. Amazing work!!

  • June 3, 2015 - 9:36 am

    Andy Kramb - Great photos!

  • June 3, 2015 - 10:38 am

    Debbie - Sweet Baby James!

    The pictures are fantastic Jamie! It is so very hard being so far away from the little fella – But you bring his sweetness to us in your photos! Thank you, John, Kelly, James and Jamie

  • June 3, 2015 - 5:29 pm

    nick - Good looking kid. Go Irish!

  • June 3, 2015 - 5:53 pm

    Rich D - great photos! Can’t wait to meet this guy

  • June 4, 2015 - 6:55 am

    Hugh - Because John wants something for free… Again…

  • June 4, 2015 - 7:27 am

    KK - Beautiful little man and outstanding photography!

  • June 4, 2015 - 8:31 am

    Mike - Wonderful!

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This little guy is almost a year old, and although he is not quite walking yet, that does not stop him for a moment.  He is on the move exploring his world!  From the moment we met I fell in love with his smile, and it delighted me so much to capture it over and over again.

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    Ikwinder - Beautiful pics
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